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Geoffrey G's avatar

Everything you wrote here rung true to my own experience of living in the likes of Lagos, Nigeria; Addis Ababa, Ethiopia; Dar es Salaam, Tanzania for several years a decade ago. (Don't hate me, I was mostly there on the "honest" profit-motive rather than as a do-gooder). Except the part where you didn't like it.

I LOVED living in these places.

Because one thing that maybe you didn't notice in your walks through Dakar over a week is that there's another "soft infrastructure" that very much increases quality-of-life at least somewhat counteracting the pollution, lack of sanitation, abject poverty, traffic, underemployment, etc. It's how much more lively and social these places are. It's easy to feel disgusted, but very hard to feel lonely.

You noted this in Hanoi. And you've commented on the spirituality of the Senegalese. But it's there in so many aspects of life. The music (enjoyed in open air, with a crowd, while dancing). The communal meals (often fed to you disgustingly by unwashed hands!). The humor (essential armor against degradation). The tendency for other people very much not to "mind their business," like it or not, and get involved in EVERYTHING. Privacy? Forget it! Life in these "shithole countries" is more dirty and dangerous than empathetic people may want to admit, but it's also much fuller in more subtle, but essential ways.

I now live in the high-HDI utopia that is Scandinavia, where you can walk unencumbered through urbanist cities or through forest and field wielding the ancient privileges of Allemansrätten. And it is really really nice. A MUCH better lifestyle, IMO, than my native United States. The hygge hype is real.

But here I miss this thing that you do have in these not-so-nice places. The street life. The energy. The human-ness. I lack that all the time. It's a persistent longing deep in my heart. And I know that a lot of the African people who have taken your advice to say yes and overcome the odds to get here as often-unwelcomed immigrants, they miss it, too. Most still don't return, given the obvious practical downsides of back home and the sunk-costs they underwent to get here (with all the hopes and expectations of whole clans at their backs), but I doubt they or I will ever quite recreate what we had down there in this spotless, somewhat limpid utopia.

If only you could have it all...

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M. E. Rothwell's avatar

Excellent piece, Chris. I think people often shy away from writing an honest account of a place for fear of being misconstrued as an unfair attack on its people, but I think you’ve framed it perfectly here.

When I was fresh out of uni about 8 years ago, I spent 2 years living and working in Southern and Eastern Africa. I only worked for tiny non-profits, but my lofty aim at the time was to work my way up to a big organisation like the UNDP or World Bank. I wanted to spend my life doing good. Two years I pursued that naive dream. Two years seeing broken promises, poor planning, and out-of-touch decrees from the air-conditioned offices and pristine Toyota Hiluxes, made me realise it was all a sham. The best that could be hoped for was a slight improvement in health outcomes. Economic development remained ever elusive. So much money spent on white elephants and shiny infrastructure that turned to rust after the projects moved on.

In truth, it took me far too long to realise no country is ever developed from the outside-in. Fair economic terms, good governance, and patience for a generation are what it takes. There is little room for the NGO, technocratic class in that equation. There was little room for me.

My dream was to combine doing good while travelling the world, but in the end I realised the only person I was helping was myself.

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